Dearest you.

Tonight was sad.

I tired to make a step forward.

I feel like I took 2 steps back.

I feel haunted by you. I even saw a truck pass me today with your name on it.

I don't think I have been in this position in 6 years.

Last time I tried to fix it the same way.

That ended up with worse heart ache than what I started with.

This time I need to go at it alone.

In time, I will have learned more about myself and life than I ever have.

I am terrified.

I miss you tonight.