Tonight was sad.
I tired to make a step forward.
I feel like I took 2 steps back.
I feel haunted by you. I even saw a truck pass me today with your name on it.
I don't think I have been in this position in 6 years.
Last time I tried to fix it the same way.
That ended up with worse heart ache than what I started with.
This time I need to go at it alone.
In time, I will have learned more about myself and life than I ever have.
I am terrified.
I miss you tonight.