Wednesday, December 30, 2009
...Write to make myself feel happy when I am down. Writing has been known to make me feel better. I don't feel very well right now. Not because I am physically ill (however, I do feel physically ill as a result), but because I am just down in the dumps, good ol' blue. I unearthed my Granny's 1930s bed frame out of the garage. I put it together in the hopes that I would feel her near. The frames of the bed acting almost as her warm welcoming arms giving me a hug once again. The kind of hugs I used to get as a child.
Connie uses her Granny's bed frame as well. I always loved her's because it sat so high up off the ground. My granny's does too. It almost makes you feel like you are flying. Flying away from anything bad...sleeping on a big fluffy cloud of happy. The height also make me feel small again. It brings be back to a time when the things that worry me now didn't matter so much. Since I got home and put the frame together I haven't really wanted to even leave my room, let alone the bed. This could be a dangerous thing. I have been known to stay in bed and mope. Although, staying in this warm cloud like bed reading "junk food" books all day sounds amazing.
My granny also slept in this bed alone. She was married to my papa unhappily. This bed seemed so huge when I was little. It seemed as though so many people could fit. I sure fit when I would come to wake her up in the mornings and jump on the bed. Maybe I will sleep in this bed forever alone? Give up trying like she did. Maybe there is no need for anyone else's warm hug than my Granny's bed? It is so much easier to fall in love with a bed that doesn't hurt you because it is so soft and pillowy. It's even, typically, in the same place you leave it every day. You can safely assume that beds are pretty reliable for that fact.
My bed feels so small compared to his. Perfect for one person, and maybe my cuddly cat. This is going to be an adjustment. I am hoping, whatever the outcome, everything will be fine. Regardless I am going to continue writing to feel better. I am going to continue floating in my granny's bed.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
In other news, connie came and had a "sorta" slumber party. We went to Ninja Sushi again. Got there with the help of my new Tom Tom! Thanks Aaron!! Connie and I played with my new Photobooth. I love that thing! We also got to have coffee time. Coffee time is a time to talk. We talk about boys, life, family frustrations all kinds of things. It has been so therapeutic to have coffee time. I needed some coffee time especially because I am entertaining changing my major.
I have always loved history very much. Specifically US history. History is something I have a real passion to learn about, talk about, watch... all history all the time. I had a history teacher in 8th grade named Mr. D. Mr. D changed how I felt at school. He was incredibly hands on in his teaching methods and it really got me interested in learning. I even graduated 8th grade with a medal for outstanding improvement in history. Some of my college professors have been the same way. Prof. Piscopo is an amazing professor! She gets so excited about history, you can't help but get excited too (not to mention Prof. Piscopo is a little firecracker!).
However, with changing my major comes other major changes. I would be ready to transfer to a university or college (other than community). The way the college system is looking as of late here in CA, it does not seem like quite a great idea to attend any school here. Most of the enrollment to schools have been frozen anyway due to lack of classes as a result of lack of funds. I plan on continuing with my planned spring semester, but I will be sitting down with a councilor to talk about my options.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
- Junk food reading. A girlfriend of mine calls it that. The books you read for your own enjoyment. Not for school.
- Make things out of buttons. I really love this snowflake made out of buttons. However, the one pictured is from Anthropologie and
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
It semi snowed in Sacramento the other night. This morning it was 26 degrees. Sadly, I didn't see it snow. Also, Sacramento will never be like the east coast. Personally I like my snow a plenty. This was the top of Aaron's roommate's car. It was the only car out there with a decent amount, so I put my finger through it to show that there was depth to it. It's supposed to rain Thursday, and it will probably be freezing. So it may happen again. If not, Aaron and his brother have decided to try their hand at making their own snow. This should be interesting.
In other small news, I am in love with Kate Spade dresses. They seem like a simple A-line shift dress pattern. I have enlisted my aunt who is a pro at the sewing machine to show me how to whip something like this up that's not $87543.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
Went to the bay area. I neglected to inform Aaron that my family was nuts. I was so caught up in some fantasy world and forgot the reality that is my insane family. My grandma is redoing her kitchen (perfect timing!). Well my uncle fired the guy who was doing the kitchen for him as a favor because everything he was doing was not up to code. So the kitchen wasn't even close to being finished. I have my mom and my Baba in the kitchen yelling. My mom is the youngest of 4 kids and insists at age 53 to still talk over people to maintain the center of attention like the baby would. So basically it was chaos the entire time there. Managed to pump out 2 pumpkin pies, mashed potatoes and a baked brie wheel with brown sugar and pecans tossed in brandy.
We decided to go back to Sacramento early. I had enough of them, and Aaron said he was sick of seeing me so upset over my mom being a douche. Went to my girlfriend Erin's house for a post turkey day cocktail which turned into me getting completely wasted. Aaron says I went from crying over hearing new information about a friend who recently killed himself, to happy crying, to carrying his medium sized Austrailian Cattle doggie Kadee down the hall saying "lookit". Craaazy town. That was my once a year annihilate. I occasionally get drunk but never lose control like that.
I am really excited to switch campus'. I am taking a poli sci. class and a ballet class I am super excited about. I feel like the work outs I am doing (running and hitting the gym) are really bulking me up. The ballet is fabulous for tone and lengthening. It's Aaron's roommates birthday and we are going to sushi. I am excited. but I am going to rest until then. Super hung over. Too bad I have no pictures from Thanksgiving. I will be sure to have some for my next post.
Monday, November 23, 2009
My mom, Aaron and I (and my moms two dogs) are going to the South Bay to have thanksgiving with my family. It was so cute that my Baba (grandma in Russian) invited him! I need to get my bangs trimmed before I go down and clean my car. Sadly, I have class on Tuesday so that really eats a lot of time I could have been spending preparing for the trip. I never really realized why a 2 hour drive needed so much preparation. On top of it all I am cooking a few things. Now I did this to myself by offering it up in order not be stuck eating a bunch of Costco food. I am making mashed potatoes, a glazed brie wheel, and apple butter pumpkin pie.
My friend Erin's birthday party at a skating rink. I was helping my favorite little girl (Erins daughter Kathryn) learn to roller skate.
Friday, November 13, 2009
I am hoping today to get as much homework done as possible. This weekend is going to be busy! I am behind in drawing and reading for my ethics class. Lord, don't get me started on my math homework. Saturday I am going to introduce Aaron (my boyfriend) to my aunt, uncle and cousin. they are new in my life. My aunt is from my dads side and I hadn't seen her since I was at least 2 or so. Come to find out she was living 20 mins away from us for 10 years and I didn't know it. Probably going to be the most influential person in my life to date. She is a psychologist and all around amazing person. Anyway, we are going to the Davis farmers market. I love farmers markets. I am really excited about it.
Well, I should get cracking on my drawing. Hopefully Aaron only has to work a few hours and then we can go to West Elm to look at these fabulous curtains. I love this, its like playing house. I can't recall the last time I was so happy!
My name is Caitlin. I live in Sacramento, CA. I am a full time student majoring in psychology at city college right now. I just started dating a pretty amazing man( I hadn't dated any of those in the past...mainly boys). I quit smoking ciggerettes in June and haven't looked back since. As a way to keep myself from smoking I started running no less than a mile 3 times a week. I am trying to loose at least 20 pounds. So that is a topic I would like to chronical in this here blog. With the holidays coming up things should get pretty interesting.
This is me by the way: