Wednesday, December 30, 2009
...Write to make myself feel happy when I am down. Writing has been known to make me feel better. I don't feel very well right now. Not because I am physically ill (however, I do feel physically ill as a result), but because I am just down in the dumps, good ol' blue. I unearthed my Granny's 1930s bed frame out of the garage. I put it together in the hopes that I would feel her near. The frames of the bed acting almost as her warm welcoming arms giving me a hug once again. The kind of hugs I used to get as a child.
Connie uses her Granny's bed frame as well. I always loved her's because it sat so high up off the ground. My granny's does too. It almost makes you feel like you are flying. Flying away from anything bad...sleeping on a big fluffy cloud of happy. The height also make me feel small again. It brings be back to a time when the things that worry me now didn't matter so much. Since I got home and put the frame together I haven't really wanted to even leave my room, let alone the bed. This could be a dangerous thing. I have been known to stay in bed and mope. Although, staying in this warm cloud like bed reading "junk food" books all day sounds amazing.
My granny also slept in this bed alone. She was married to my papa unhappily. This bed seemed so huge when I was little. It seemed as though so many people could fit. I sure fit when I would come to wake her up in the mornings and jump on the bed. Maybe I will sleep in this bed forever alone? Give up trying like she did. Maybe there is no need for anyone else's warm hug than my Granny's bed? It is so much easier to fall in love with a bed that doesn't hurt you because it is so soft and pillowy. It's even, typically, in the same place you leave it every day. You can safely assume that beds are pretty reliable for that fact.
My bed feels so small compared to his. Perfect for one person, and maybe my cuddly cat. This is going to be an adjustment. I am hoping, whatever the outcome, everything will be fine. Regardless I am going to continue writing to feel better. I am going to continue floating in my granny's bed.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
In other news, connie came and had a "sorta" slumber party. We went to Ninja Sushi again. Got there with the help of my new Tom Tom! Thanks Aaron!! Connie and I played with my new Photobooth. I love that thing! We also got to have coffee time. Coffee time is a time to talk. We talk about boys, life, family frustrations all kinds of things. It has been so therapeutic to have coffee time. I needed some coffee time especially because I am entertaining changing my major.
I have always loved history very much. Specifically US history. History is something I have a real passion to learn about, talk about, watch... all history all the time. I had a history teacher in 8th grade named Mr. D. Mr. D changed how I felt at school. He was incredibly hands on in his teaching methods and it really got me interested in learning. I even graduated 8th grade with a medal for outstanding improvement in history. Some of my college professors have been the same way. Prof. Piscopo is an amazing professor! She gets so excited about history, you can't help but get excited too (not to mention Prof. Piscopo is a little firecracker!).
However, with changing my major comes other major changes. I would be ready to transfer to a university or college (other than community). The way the college system is looking as of late here in CA, it does not seem like quite a great idea to attend any school here. Most of the enrollment to schools have been frozen anyway due to lack of classes as a result of lack of funds. I plan on continuing with my planned spring semester, but I will be sitting down with a councilor to talk about my options.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
- Junk food reading. A girlfriend of mine calls it that. The books you read for your own enjoyment. Not for school.
- Make things out of buttons. I really love this snowflake made out of buttons. However, the one pictured is from Anthropologie and
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
It semi snowed in Sacramento the other night. This morning it was 26 degrees. Sadly, I didn't see it snow. Also, Sacramento will never be like the east coast. Personally I like my snow a plenty. This was the top of Aaron's roommate's car. It was the only car out there with a decent amount, so I put my finger through it to show that there was depth to it. It's supposed to rain Thursday, and it will probably be freezing. So it may happen again. If not, Aaron and his brother have decided to try their hand at making their own snow. This should be interesting.
In other small news, I am in love with Kate Spade dresses. They seem like a simple A-line shift dress pattern. I have enlisted my aunt who is a pro at the sewing machine to show me how to whip something like this up that's not $87543.