Facelift: In Progress

I gave my blog a face lift. I needed a change. Lace and Pearls was sorta me but I missed my old blog title which is much more me. I'm in the process of making it even more spiffy. Hence the "in progress" bit. I hope you all enjoy the change as much as I do. I've been feeling really inspired to blog more so I figured I'd invest more time on my little corner of the interwebz.

Its not officially Halloween anymore but happy Halloween none the less! I've enjoyed seeing all the awesome costumes on my Instagram.


Happy Halloween!

I Can Blog.

I swear I can. One shouldn't swear though. I've been up to a lot. I'm a big fancy college gal you know? I just survived my first midterm at big kid college (which isn't saying much since it was only for two classes). Last weekend I went on an eating spree with one of my best lady friends. I was calling it "Breakfast with Tiffany" get it? I'm sure she is annoyed at this phrase by now. I then went to my very first bridal shower. I unexpectedly had a blast! I had the best cupcakes, some magical whipped fruit dip, and brushed off my toilet paper dress designing skills. By the end of that party I was signed up to design two wedding dresses and plan three weddings (but not really...). This weekend I'm going to Apple Hill with my Mama. We've lived in the Sacramento area for 10+ years and she has never been!!!!!! 

Also.... GO GIANTS!!!!

Conference weekend

I have so much to blog about! I don't even think I blogged about my birthday. I spent conference weekend in SLC, UT. It was not only my first time there for general conference but my first time in Salt Lake in general. Ha! Of course I'm ready to move there. Salt Lake is so beautiful and clean! I loved where we stayed it was within a mile of temple square so I walked a lot. The salt flats were also a high light. I love how amazing nature is.

I don't have a huge place in my heart for California. Sure people move here because the weather is nice year round and there is a diverse climate. I miss the fall colors and getting all four seasons though. Not to mention when you visit other states like I do frequently (Oregon and now Utah) you realize that the cost of living, gas, etc is where its at because people want to live in California. I'm too poor to be a Californian. Don't even get me started on the public college system.

I'm on the brink of fine/happy and sad/depressed. I'm not acclimated to heart break right now. Its strange when you have so much to be happy about and feel blessed but feel so down in the dumps. So many changes are about to happen in the next 4 to 8 weeks (no I'm not pregnant! haha). Wish me luck!

my mom and I helped a girl from my church choose her wedding dress. She looked beautiful.

my girl Emily and I. It was really nice to be able to visit. Also my favorite side of the temple

Playing in the salt flats

Curl Up and Die: an emo title for an emo post

3x great grandma. She looks like a rad lady right?

I am not having a good time with life. Well some of life is really quite good.

Pros (because I need to be reminded):
- Mom got baptized. Wow, that one came out of left field. Thanks God!
- Mom and I are road tripping to Utah for conference!!! I am really excited now that everything worked out
- I FINALLY am caught up with my Womens History of the US reading!!!
- I have fantastic friends and a great support system. I'm really humbled by the friends and people I hold close to me. I'm not a quantity type of person more into quality.
- consistently going to this really fantastic class at the Well called Core and More and I already feel my balance is better. I've also been running again and I've gotten my entire household (all two of us) on the track to eating cleaner.

Heres where stuff gets emo:

- Single...again. I'm really sick of this guys (in general and guys!). I try really hard to open my mind and heart. Its really hard to not let all this make me really bitter and angry. Plus why do break ups affect girls more than guys?! Boys are such sluts. LDS guys are no exemption from typical inconsiderate behaviors. No worries. I'll sit at home doing family history research kicking it with my cats being all healthy and awesome with my Mom till I die. Heavenly father promises us if we don't get a chance to have a family down here we can have one up there. Blegh, my heart still hurts real bad though.

- as a result I need out of California. So I am doing some sneaky things to try and run away. May not be a bad thing though.

- I'm sick of being strong. Especially because people mistake it for coldness or having a hardened heart. I'm still a woman and I still feel.

I talked to my bishop today and we talked about not concentrating on the past, living in the present, and looking to the future. I don't know what to look to the future for. I guess I'll kick it in this fog a little longer and take it one uneasy step at a time. Regardless I have a lot of things to look forward to. Especially spiritually speaking.

I need to blog again.

I decided I need to blog more. Or at all in all actuality. Somehow I should find the time. You know, in between; class, work, personal life, churchly things. Last week I started CSUS (Aka big kid college). I'm in heaven. I can't really name anything wrong with it besides the walk from institute where I park and my classes is practically 100 miles and takes literally 15 mins and thats if I don't speed walk. I asked Sean to teach me to skateboard...in my case long board. The second complaint is I don't spend enough time there. I know right?! I am only taking two classes there and its a travesty! Both of my classes are history classes which have nothing to do with my major but I need them for graduation. I love the Well. Its a BEAUTIFUL gym. If your a gym rat and you died, this would be heaven. I have been taking the "Core and More" class. I LOVE it. Today was especially challenging. We used a Bosou ball to do burpees and a ton more fun/horrible things. Man am I going to hurt tomorrow! Thursday will be week 2 of 16 down. 14 to go. I am procrastinating emailing a professor I want to be BFFs with. A psych professor who teaches ABA. This could be my in to intern at the autism research center on campus. I think he'd love me and my 2 and half years of experience with administering ABA. I swear I'll email him tomorrow and say, "pretty please will you be my advisor?! I promise to be awesome and bust my hump!". Here are some pics of the blessed event. I swear I get giddy every time I go to school. EEEEP!

Legit status B!

Thats The Well. Its massive and I LOVE it. Homeeee!

Yay for a short week right?

Shes Crafty!

I never write in this thing! Today I wish I could quit my job and work from home. I'm sick of the craziness of school and I hate going and doing something that is so anxiety filled. Problem is I have a bunch of half skills. I can....

Knit. But only scarves. I never learned to increase or decrease to make hats or socks and stuff.

I can draw. But I don't know any kind of technique and I'm way out of practice. I did draw a few things in a beginning art class that got hung in the hallway at my college!

I'm only just learning to sew. Tension? Needle size? What?!

I could plan/style a wedding like no ones business and on a budget! But I never have gotten the opportunity to learn the ins and outs.

I would just love to skip the screaming today, the bosses out to fire me for whatever reasons, worrying if I am doing everything right, putting the crazy miles on my car driving from case to case. Bring on being hunched over a sewing machine, hands hurting from knitting so much, trying to figure out spread sheets. I just love the feeling of stepping back from something I made with my own hands and thinking, "I did that!". I'd kill to own my own business. I'm sure we all would. Today I'll pretend I'm on my way there.

A little update I (and BF) did to my night stand. Notice my balled up knitting under there?

On California's higher education...

I can't speak for other states. Its kind of like the depression how people always "heard" of better job opportunities in other places. "I hear if we go to California theres farm work!". I can relate to this thought process because my family on my Dad's side lived the "Grapes of Wrath". Left Texas because of the dust bowl, migrated to Wyoming, and finally settled here in California where my Granny picked strawberries and cotton to get by.

Well just like them I always hear or believe, "maybe Oregon is better?" "I bet in the south they care about history still...". The sad fact of it is College stinks probably everywhere. I'm physically exhausted; calling this school to get transferred to that school. I'm sick of counselors pointing me in the wrong direction and being counter productive. Isn't that supposed to be their job?! This world is completely backwards. People who are legitimately trying to obtain a higher education have to claw and fight for it ( I could share some stories of friends experiences that would make you blush!). Where others who are just there for "free government money" (don't try and tell me I'm crazy, I've met people at school literally taking classes for money only to drop the class) can simply walk in add 12 units of BS classes and drop. Its so easy to take the wrong path. I spoke about that during my lesson in Relief Society Sunday. "...do not let us be slothful because of the easiness of the way" (alma 37:46). Oh how tempting slothiness is in times like these.

I have to try and remind myself the blessings at the end of the tunnel are worth the blood, sweat, and tears. Believe me I've shed all three for my two and half useless AAs and my admission to CSU. I am writing this horribly negative post in hopes that someday when I am having a fantastic time learning fascinating things I can look back and think, "gosh, I'm really glad I fought through my low points for this." I hope to find some kind of pride and self worth that I fought the good fight and didn't falter.