One is not like the other.

If one looks bigger than the other, its because it is.

Note to self: Don't rough house with the cat so much. This morning his canine tooth slipped

right under my nail and punctured me. It's been throbbing all day. I almost passed out due to the sight of blood. I hope this heals fast.

When you are feeling down...

Take silly pictures!

My favorite scarf. Its actually from Afghanistan unlike the hipsters ones.

So Aaron and I are never speaking again. It's a hard pill to swallow seeing as how I really had hope for him getting it together someday like I was told. I wasn't giving him enough space. I suppose I just couldn't conceptualize that someone who I cared for so much would want me completely out of their lives all of a sudden. Don't get me wrong, I am by no means a needy lady. I got my own business. I hate being made to feel like I am that irritating stalker chick that "needs" a guy. He has a great ability in making me feel like I am exactly that girl.

We were supposed to go on a motorcycle ride for valentines day. Valentines day is a hard day for me. I lost a child on that day. I try and make a tradition, no matter what, to do something really special and out of the ordinary. Or else I get really depressed. You never really get over some thing like that.

Someday I will find a man that cares about me as much as I think I deserve. Right now he only cares about himself. This is the last time he will break my heart (I was really looking forward for that V-day ride.).

Podcast.

Does anyone know of good Podcasts to subscribe to?

I am new to this and didn't realize there were so many!

I am interested in crafting, news, politics, music, something funny, history...

Anything especially fun. I would love some tips.

Me day.

I haven't done my nails in it seems forever! I used to do my nails weekly. Lately I have felt like I've let myself go. So I tried my best to not feel guilty I wasn't hitting the books hard. I went to the gym this morning, it was a great session this time! Then needed to pick up some things at Target. One I must share!

I got samples of these awhile back. The conditioner is mint rosemary smell and the shampoo is juniper and rosemary (I love juniper! especially in my gin!). My hair has been a wreck lately! After using this shampoo (coupled with Dove's moisture conditioner) my hair is so extremely soft and smooth! My hair looks healthier than it has since my last trim!

Then I was inspired by this image to paint my nails.

Sometimes one color can get so dull!

My version:

I didn't have the right pink. I feel I came pretty close. I've always hated my fingers. I felt they are not girly or dainty enough.

I need to study some math, then I am going to get ready and go see my cousin Avalon's "party like its 1929" thing at her school. I am excited to see her and her class mates in action!

Fill in the blank Friday.

1.  If I had two hours to myself today, I'd     drive to the beach      .

2.  If I could travel anywhere today, I would go to    Anywhere on the east coast ♥   .

3.      This last Christmas     is my happiest memory.

4.  Sometimes you're     the one with the answers       other times you're     not in the loop anymore .

5.  Beauty is     much more than exterior appearances.

6.  I would be embarassed if anyone knew    how much I can talk sometimes. My closest friends do know and I am still embarrassed by it at times.

7.  Love at first sight is    Something I didn't believe in until recently. Sometimes you see someone and you just know their it for you    .

Surviving Community College

Well college in general I am sure. You could apply these lessons to either. I learned some lessons today.

1. Always get the name of the person you are speaking to. So in case they tell you some wrong information you know who to have nailed to a cross.
2. Ask a million questions. I always feel bad bothering people. I need to stop that.
3. Don't let anyone slam a door in your face. You may have a financial aid person telling you they can't help you. That doesn't mean game over! Of course the government/school doesn't want to give you money. If you are working hard and taking school seriously, however, then by all means that money is yours...get some!
4. There are 20 different angles to a situation. Nothing is ever so cut and dry as it may seem off the bat. Like this fabulous country we live in, school, is just as complicated as the US government. There are loop holes everywhere!

I got up at 7am for a 9:30am appointment with a loan officer at my college today (I anticipated the possible hour that it would take to find parking). I  maintained a positive outlook (as I have tried through the past 3 weeks of school) the whole morning. I was sure that she was going to give me some great news! No such luck (see #3). She told me that there were 200+ students waiting to have loans approved before me. You see, they submitted their applications earlier in the semester. How was I supposed to know I wasn't going to get my loan check (see #2)?! She said it would take 3-4 weeks for her to get to my application. Throughout the day I thought about all the things people and myself have been saying about this situation (see #4), that I had to be enrolled in 6 units at SCC for them to release my check, how I hated the ARC campus a mere 3 weeks in. It dawned on me! I could try (try being the operative word here) and sweet talk a political science (3 units) and french teacher (3/4 units) at SCC to get in their class (classes are all closed but its not like I am starting from square one). So I jammed down to SCC ran it by the financial aid people there, they assured me after I asked them several times that my plan would work( see #2). They would issue me a new unofficial check once I was in 6 units. So I ran around got professors names, emails, and office hours. I plan on spending tomorrow sweet talking professors. Maybe I will try offering my first born to get into their class? It is sad, I really like my ARC professors and classes. I just can't stand the parking set up, campus and the fact that I need money to go to school and ARC is not so willing to give it. Next semester I am factoring in a PT job!

Between a Rock and a Hard Place.

So awhile back I had a hair mishap.

I wanted heavy 60s style bangs

a la this:

Liv.

Sadly, I got super wispy things. I was pretty upset. I have generally really thick hair. I can achieve these types of bangs pretty effortlessly. It seems the amount she thinned out my bangs they never got back to normal. They are still pretty thin. So I can keep trimming them till it all catches up. As I have been doing

(just the other day, super stringy I need a trim/ thinning look. Never mind the poopy face.)

or, I pinned them back and took a few shots.

I've tried to grow them out before. I usually get ticked off with them when they reach right about my eyes. Also can't stand them when they are just in between being too short to tuck behind my ears.

What do you guys think?